April 5, 2020 Who am I?

Reading: Numbers 16 and 1 Corinthians 7

Scripture: 1 Corinthians 7:15-16, But if the unbelieving partner separates, let it be so. In such cases the brother or sister is not enslaved. God has called you to peace. For how do you know, wife, whether you will save your husband? Or how do you know, husband, whether you will save your wife?

Thoughts: This morning I found comfort in this. Growing up in the church and the teachings that divorce was evil or of the devil and that we were not to divorce except because of adultery. I have been through 2 divorces and striving to be the man I’m to be in my marriage. As I look back my first there was abuse (toward me physical and verbal from me in the form of yelling) but also as much as I believed I was not a true follower if Christ, and I don’t think she was ether. My second was during a time where I was playing the Sunday morning Christian going to church part of the time and trying to look good for others especially for my parents to make them think I’m following in their faith. In this time looking back I know that my ex-wife and I were essentially unbelievers. I don’t know if there was physical infidelity, but porn became a huge part of my life. After she left me and we divorced, then after a year of not knowing who I was and seeking to find myself in all the wrong places. I heard God say go back to school I went through the process of getting set to attend a local Biblical university the day before I started my first class, I met my current wife. She has helped me to seek God more deeply then I knew was possible we found a church home where we are thriving. My comfort and peace comes from God and that my understanding of who I was then and who they were and who and who’s I am now. God has redeemed me even after all the mistakes and the failed marriages. I am becoming the man of God I am called to be.

Prayer: Father, you are the great redeemer, you sent your son to take my sins so that I can have a relationship with you. I that you that you love me enough that if I was the only one who needed it you still would have sent him. I thank you for you blessings and provisions that you pour out every day, I thank you for my family and those around me that help point me back to you. I ask that you continue to open my eyes to that wonders of your love and help me to share it with the world and point to you.